My Dream Job

By Day: Professor of Nursing

By night: A musician at a piano bar, you know the type where you are handed a stack of napkins to write requests on. Everyone sings along. I have been to some of these places and they are always a hoot. It's a real social atmosphere, and I have met people from all over the globe.

During summers off: A world traveler, a nurse on medical missions

I am currently a nurse in a hospital. It is my second career, and one of the driving factors in becoming a nurse would be to travel to third-world countries and provide medical care to those who so desperately need it. Our health care system in U.S. may not be perfect, but we have systems in place for children to receive vaccinations, and if you have a medical emergency, no hospital can turn you away. I have a friend who went on a medical mission in Belize to do dental work. People started lining up outside the tent at 2am for medical care. Lines stretched out as far a they could see.

So, it's more of a lifestyle choice I am striving for. To be a nursing professor, means I would have the schedule I need to pursue my other dreams. Currently I am in school working on furthering my education.

As far as my night job? Well maybe when I'm retired I can be a coffee shop musician.

My secret

I am a wife, a mom to one child and a dog
I own a home--the american dream
I have a career
I am grateful for the many blessing in my life
I smile at my family, I cook the meals, do the laundry and
I try my best to play the role of good mom & wife

YET

I'm really not all that good at doing the former
I feel like I'm an outsider looking in
I don't feel as though I belong in this life
I spend alot of time giving myself pep talks
I know the grass is always greener on the other side
I can be honest now, but still
I will keep my secret

Second Chances--sunday scribblings

"It's never too late to have a happy childhood"

"Grower older is mandatory, growing up is optional"

These are the quotes that came to mind when I saw the Sunday Scribblings prompt. It took a more than a day to find them in my over packed brain, but as I enjoyed my tranquil sunshine filled bike ride this morning, I realize that right now I am enjoying a second chance at childhood.

I was one of many who never really had a happy childhood, it was packed with worry and fear and not much time for fun. I grew into a busy worker bee adult, and anxiety and the need to prove myself consumed much of my time. Somewhere along the way, I picked up some hobbies I never had as a child--bike riding, attempting to learn the piano, and two years ago, I got my very first dog, who is the best friend I have ever had. Reminding myself daily to take some time to have fun and be carefree has enriched my life immensely and fills me with inner peace.

So to those of you filled with worry and to much to do, remember to find you inner child, and go play in the sunshine. And to all the parents out there, bring your children out to play with you too.

Flying Pigs

This is one of the prints in my living room entitled "When Pigs Fly." I haven't a clue why I was drawn to this painting, I find it cute and humorous. The pig looks so darn cute and free (the image above is a poor example). When I looked at this weeks Sunday Scribblings prompt, its the first thing that came to mind. When pigs fly of course, as we all know, is the thing that will never happen. This little pig in the picture above is flying in his own way. Perhaps I feel drawn to this little piggie because in my life, I am trying to fly, despite what the naysayers say. To fly outside the box and do a little more in life than my traditional role as wife, mother, and employee. To recognize my dreams of becoming a musician, and a writer. Like the pig, I am running free, taking the plunge, and make tiny little flights in my own way.

A married woman's little helper

Sunday Scribbling response # 47

Crushes, when I first saw this topic I thought, ah, crushes aren't for me, the married woman. Truth be known, my "crushes" help me keep that sexy feeling. I have had crushes on the richer, older, and more attractive. Crushes on the younger, naive and inexperienced. An adult crush, for me is that innocent flirtation thing that happens with the various men I have met. I can instantly develop a crush on someone with a sexy foreign accent. I have witnessed my husband experience "crushes" or flirtations with people. Once it would cause me wild jealousy, but now I have mellowed with age and experience. I know these crushes are part of marriage. Part fantasy, part reality, totally harmless.